|thanks for the pic heather!|
"You must learn some of my philosophy. Think only of the past as its remembrance gives you pleasure."
-Jane Austen, Pride and Prejudice
I reverted years and dozens of past posts to drafts so they no longer show in my blog. I wanted a way to archive them so they weren't deleted, but I no longer wanted them accessible to the public. The past posts show a journey to the person I am today, but didn't paint the entire picture. The growing control-freak in me hated the inconsistencies, the lack of organization & frankly, I just couldn't stand the idea of people reading that crap anymore. SO BAI.
Since almost dying from an (as of now, not 100% diagnosed) allergic reaction, life has been on the up & up. Most notably, Tom & I are now engaged! I'm over the moon excited! Wedding plans are coming along nicely, although it kills me how expensive it is to host a big party to celebrate your love. Oh well, it's just money.
I wonder if we've fallen into a rut: work, dinner, whatever, weekends travel, repeat. I mean, if it's a rut, it's one in which I'm completely happy. For the first time in my life, I'm content. I am happy with Tom, with my life, with how things are going, with the idea of my future, with everything. I've never felt this way before; before there was always some wanting, whether expressed or hidden away like a guilty emotion.
I never thought I'd be this happy & excited to be an old, boring person.